So today will probably be the day i lose one the best women in my life. My mammaw Joyce. It's so hard to see and hear my mom's voice go through it too. I don't even want to imagine going through it. Thus year has been so tossed up for me. It want's to be good but hen bad takes over and triumphs. Man life is too short. it's not fair that you can work so hard and still not have the results you want. But people who don't even attempt get shit handed to them. I just don't understand for real. I write letters to God and I know he listens cause he clearly read the last one I wrote him because I got a quick response. I dont want an answer anymore. I want help. I need it. I'm so frustrated that nothing can calm me down. I cant focus. School sucks. Im ready to quit and do what I know best. I hate everything. I hate it. Why me. Why do I got to be put through this all and never get a damn thing I want. If this is as good as it gets then what the fuck am I doing it for? Smh a waste of mytime! Im so angry! Im so fed up! Im so disappointed. Im so tired. Just ready for all this bull shit to stop happening and to have continuous good things happen. No stipulations no this for that. Im so greatful for all i have really but damn why do I work so damn hard and still nothing. I don't know I guess I have to wait for the Lord above to answer me....
Sincerely
Wendy Leigh
