IT'S JUST NOT YOU....

The doubts in my head are ringing like a telephone.... time to pick it up and get the answers that are set in stone. Yeah I was right you are nothing like the others but your still not what I need I still have him to discover. I keep praying that you don't get mad at me then I get mad automatically cause how could you be mad when in reality Im number two and you got a girl thats at home waiting...exactly. I know you love me and I love you too... just not "IN LOVE" Im not gon' lie I dont have that to do. Were really good friends and Im here for you. But I been in relationships that are all lies and I dont want that no more I need a proud guy. You say your leaving her, that the time is coming. well i aint got that either so like you do from the truth Ima keep on running. Cause I deserve way more. and not next week or month. right now today and you aint keeping up. Thats the harsh truth. now its your time to face it! Im too extraordinary to deal with basic!

To "Kevin"

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Up Lyrics - Justin Bieber feat. Chris Brown

""we can make the sunshine in the moonlight, we can turn the grey clouds into blue skies""

JUNE : INTERESTING MONTH

Well... to say the least. this summer has went as nothing I planned nor expected. I honestly don't even know what the deal is for real. Kevin =) thats all I can say. He's my best friend. or so thats what we call ourselves. I dont want nothing more from him either because he has a girlfriend and I am not trying to be the homewrecker or the one who helped break her heart. I know the feeling ohhh to well. I love him but Im not in love with him, and with the circumstances I know I never will love him completely because I wont allow myself. I feel like I am leading him on more than I want to. I know our paths just will never align and I don't want to put him through that. I know how much he cares about me and its just not fair. Brentnei's bday is coming up in a couple days. Smh I dont know what she is going to want to do for that. I know I aint going anywhere with Lakeshia so thats a done deal already. Chels wants us to come down there but I don't know bout all that cuz I dont have the money or the time off work for all that. Plus I am going to be going down to NC to see my brother soon! Before summer ends for sure! I am sooo tired but just a little more i guess. Alyria and Bray's parties are coming up too. I need to get there power bikes and shoes and be done. Tia needs to get her check so we can buy some stuff and be done with it. I need some me money. Me time. me decisions. I need to plan some stuff and get it together. School and everything. It has gotta end like asap. The real world is hard but Im tryna live it because this transitional period just aint koolin it for me. anyhow, Ima leave off! I need sleep!

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had (Audio)

CJ, I wanted You bad... but Im so through with that cause you turned out to be the best thing I never had and Im the best thing you'll never have...

Interesting Good =)

So it's definitely been a while since I have posted. So i am going to get a lot out!!! Well I am working at Walmart now and I love it! I have made a lot of new friends! Makes me love being home and not want to go back to school but I guess. Ima see if they can just work every other weekend so I can still work there. I am supposed to be working white castle too but they have been b.s ing me around. Ima just give my notice. Plus the driving is ridiculous for real. I haven't talked to Clarence in so long. I haven't talked to Mike in so long. it feels weird not talking to ppl that I usually conversated with everyday. But I guess if people were meant to be in your life they would be huh.Its weird to now that I am at walmart Kevin and me have become really good friends. I never really talked to him just his brothers. But I like it. Were cool. he has a girlfriend so its not like that but I can tell it is. lol When were at work it's funny. he sits with me in the break room, he comes up front just to talk to me. he stalls when I'm around but him and his girl have been together for a while so i aint into no home wrecking! But friends/flirts it is! =) I also had a crush on someone that one of my new b.f.f's is talking to but I would never do that to a fried old or new. Oh yeah which brings me to Tia. she and jasmine finally broke up for good and she was talking to Kayla but that just aint happening. Me an Kayla took a road trip to columbus. OH EM GEE... smh that was the funnest time ever! We werent even anywhere close to where we was supposed to be! it was fun! I like her! Were cool. My brother Aj Moved to North Carolina too. smh sad! Went and seen him for 2 days b4 he left and seen Kyle! I don't knwo what I would do with out them guys! I love them! Ima save up and drive up there b4 the summer is over! My aunt Carole writes me on fb wanting to get to know me. Ima make plans to go see her soon. Hopefully Kyle is home when ever it is. I don't want to feel awkward. I have ahuge todo list to do for tomorrow. I needa clean my room and my car inside and out! smh its dirty!!! I got another tattoo! Its kinda big but everyone likes it so i anint gona complain. I hope my housing on campus turns out! if not I'm jus stuck. Idk it's whatever. I would rather go back to the suites anyway. Brayleigh and Alyria are getting ready to start walking!! those girls are off the hook!! geetting grown on me! I already started planning Alyrias bday party! its crazy but I love it! Anyway I need to go do something productive off of my todo list! Just wanted to update. I have been happy lately!

=)

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh