Well... to say the least. this summer has went as nothing I planned nor expected. I honestly don't even know what the deal is for real. Kevin =) thats all I can say. He's my best friend. or so thats what we call ourselves. I dont want nothing more from him either because he has a girlfriend and I am not trying to be the homewrecker or the one who helped break her heart. I know the feeling ohhh to well. I love him but Im not in love with him, and with the circumstances I know I never will love him completely because I wont allow myself. I feel like I am leading him on more than I want to. I know our paths just will never align and I don't want to put him through that. I know how much he cares about me and its just not fair. Brentnei's bday is coming up in a couple days. Smh I dont know what she is going to want to do for that. I know I aint going anywhere with Lakeshia so thats a done deal already. Chels wants us to come down there but I don't know bout all that cuz I dont have the money or the time off work for all that. Plus I am going to be going down to NC to see my brother soon! Before summer ends for sure! I am sooo tired but just a little more i guess. Alyria and Bray's parties are coming up too. I need to get there power bikes and shoes and be done. Tia needs to get her check so we can buy some stuff and be done with it. I need some me money. Me time. me decisions. I need to plan some stuff and get it together. School and everything. It has gotta end like asap. The real world is hard but Im tryna live it because this transitional period just aint koolin it for me. anyhow, Ima leave off! I need sleep!
Love Always-N-Forever
Wendy Leigh
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