Ryan Leslie - "Glory" (Official Music Video)

The Glory <---

No Prize....

So I officially started at Wal-mart today. All * hr shifts, Guess I can't complain considering I have a cell bill and credit card bill to finish paying off. Plus still working one day at White Castle a week. which means getting paid every Thursday. I kinda hinted to Tia today about a couple things, who knows maybe she got it. I aint gona just say it though. I did her hair today. I hooked her up a little but you know what, I am realizing that I am not winning a prize or a contest by pleasing everyone but yourself. I need to learn how to make myself happy. It sucks that I can do that for others but not myself. I can make them happy and appreciative but I can't for myself. =(. Guess I can add that to my life todo list that never gets touched because I am sulking in pitty. I definitely need to take glory. But How do I do this? It has to be my time right? When?? Like in that Fabolous song My time. Guess I needa get a motivator. I needa find my iPod too. This shit is BS! Tomorrow after work. 10:30-5:30. May 26th I should get some good money. Hopefully taxes doesn't completely wipe me. I had em take an extra $5 out every check for tax reasons anyway. i am claiming Alyria next tax season though I do know that much!! Hopefully Tia don't blow this school loan money on useless shit. Smh Hopefully Kayla straightens her out a little! Help her get on a good path for her and Lyrie! Well I needa go to bed. 8 and 9 hour days for the rest of the week. Toodles

Love Always-n-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Frankie J - Tears of A Clown(Official New Single + Lyrics/Download)

I just want to be different... =?

New Start

So today was my sisters bday. I kind of feel bad cause she felt like it wasn't. I know the feeling but I mean what can you do? I don't even have money to get her anything so I definitely owe her next week. smh at myself. I went to the dentist today too. got 3 feelings. Another appointment June 9th I think. Kinda feels good knowing they wont hurt like they did!! I'll be glad when they all are done and I just keep on making sure they stay that way. Clarence is here texting me saying "kum see me"... bet not! Always tryna see me when it's late and or when he needs or wants something. I am not about to get used. Forget all that mess. He a fool!! I gotta be a Walmart for this 3rd interview and stuff and getting drug tested and stuff. I'm ready to start so I can make some money!!! I hope hours be right too. I just don't know what to do about white castle. Guess we'll see huh! Jazz is on her way now to get this Harry Potter movie. I just got back from Tia's though. Like every night has been. I don;t think I am going tomorrow. I'm good on it. To be honest I am jealous of Tia. But I'll keep that to myself because I am also happy for her at the same time! She deserves happiness. I love her to death!! She can't help it shes beautiful. Anyway that Harry Potter movie was intense. I liked it a lot. I have so much on my mind and for some reason I just can't get it out!! This sucks for real cause that's why i have this blog. It's like my own personal diary and I feel broken. =( I feel like I need to Get it together. I know I gotta an A in Sex class, a C in Philosophy, a D in Soc and now Im just waiting on parenting. Hopefully it's an A too then my gpa should be about the same as it was last semester!!! Fall semester Ima have to bust balls to finish!! I don't want to be there a full extra year!! I know a semester for sure because of taking a semester off but Jeeszh. I also did Lisa's hair. Kinda rushed through it but it still looked it alright. I think she liked it. I wish I could get away for like 2 months and come back wayyyyyyy different. Guess that's not gona happen so I needa get it together. Welp I'ma call it a night!! Toodles!!

Love Always-N-Forever
Wendy Leigh

Frankie J - The Ones I Wanna Love (NEW 2011)

=)

Realization

Okay it's been a while. But I'm officially out of classes for the semester finally. I had my interviews at wal-mart. Hopefully I hear something back like asap this week. Gotta dentist appointment tomorrow at 10am. Yuck! and gotta work this weekend. Hopefully money just comes in cause this is stressful. I have been thinking a lot lately too. About who I am and who I come off to be. I don't want to deceive myself right now and i think I am. I also don't want people thinking I am conforming to anyone. I have realized it don't matter the sex of the person I like. I'm attracted to people not what they are. This is kind of hard for me to say but I know I have to face it. i don't want to hide who I am. I'm attracted to attractive people. I have known this for a while but as I get older I realize I just want to be happy and doing this makes me feel 100 percent better about trying to accept it. Even though no one reads this blog. It's my personal diary. But I am bout to chill wit bray for a second so I will write more later tonight! Mothers day was amazing by the way!!


Love Always-N-Forever
Wendy Leigh

What I want....

Hmmm So Brentnei Moved out this weekend... Osama Bin Laden was killed, I am currently watching Obama speak and tell the story about his killing. this gives him so much more votes!! want to bet? We'll see. I just wish that gas would go down and all this bickering of the deficit would stop cutting into the college budget so I have some money to finish school with. I actually cooked a meal. Prolly wont do it again considering my limited options of what to cook and what to cook with! man I am nervous about these Exams... especially this SOC 151.. fml about it. Im going to go out to Zane State asap so I can take this STATS class and transfer the credit.. This sucks cause I can already tell Im not gona get a C in this stupid Soc class which means ima have to take it over again to even apply to this Social Work Major. I'm kind of tired of dealing with all the trouble it is taking to reach these goals. Everything is starting to take all my energy and patience which wasn't much to begin with. I'm physically, emotionally, and and everything else broken down. I am in panic mode. I hate not knowing whats next and what do I do? I am scared of the unknown. I should just focus on right now though... I need to STUDY and just know what I need to know as much as possible so that I can do good on these exams. I think I have an A in fsw 365 and If i can do good on this exam for 381 i can get an A- in here and maybe that can out weigh the Soc grade which is likely to be a D... =( I keep thinking about babies too. I have wanted to become a mom for so long but my insecurities have made me stop all that. This summer I have high hopes for myself though. Hopefully a lot of realizing! I need it I know that much! Ughghhhh I just want to scream right now... Bout to crawl in my bed and stay there! I can only handle so much... Guess what I want is irrelevant

Mariah Carey - I Still Believe

I will always love you C.J Davis