Numb from the Pain....

So today will probably be the day i lose one the best women in my life. My mammaw Joyce. It's so hard to see and hear my mom's voice go through it too. I don't even want to imagine going through it. Thus year has been so tossed up for me. It want's to be good but hen bad takes over and triumphs. Man life is too short. it's not fair that you can work so hard and still not have the results you want. But people who don't even attempt get shit handed to them. I just don't understand for real. I write letters to God and I know he listens cause he clearly read the last one I wrote him because I got a quick response. I dont want an answer anymore. I want help. I need it. I'm so frustrated that nothing can calm me down. I cant focus. School sucks. Im ready to quit and do what I know best. I hate everything. I hate it. Why me. Why do I got to be put through this all and never get a damn thing I want. If this is as good as it gets then what the fuck am I doing it for? Smh a waste of mytime! Im so angry! Im so fed up! Im so disappointed. Im so tired. Just ready for all this bull shit to stop happening and to have continuous good things happen. No stipulations no this for that. Im so greatful for all i have really but damn why do I work so damn hard and still nothing. I don't know I guess I have to wait for the Lord above to answer me....

Sincerely

Wendy Leigh

Beyoncé - Dance For You

Mary J. Blige feat. Drake - Mr. Wrong [NEW SONG 2011]

Clarence Eugene Davis Jr. "My Mr.Wrong"

Halloween Day 2011

Well its been over a month since I have updated my blog/diary. Ummm yeah a lot has definitely happened. So much I don't even know where to start. The first thing on my mind is Clarence:). Tomorrow November 1st marks 6 Years that me and him have been back and forth. It's crazy. I'm still confused about him but I know I love him and that is enough for me right now. i just want to be with him but its unrealistic. So it's a "For Now" thing. Man I thought I was really pregnant. I was a whole week late on my period an I'm still feeling weird though. He don't need no more kids and I don't need any yet. Amyway School is definitely getting hectic. I'm slacking for sure! I don't want to do anything and I have been procrastinating alot! I need to get it together like asap. I lost my apartment keys too. Smh. My mammaw isn't really doing to good either. She's been in hospice since about March but they told mom they don't think she'll make it to Christmas. Which is heartbreaking. & my mom is devastated. Mammaw is her world besides Brayleigh. I don't even know what to think about that. It's freaking crazy. I have been so emotional lately too. i cry about everything and just a lot of stuff has been not going my way. it leans toward me and then just goes away. I get one step and then pushed far back. i found diaries that prove I am stuck in the same place Ive been in. I need something to move me forward!! i need something! =( Just gotta keep it pushing it! The song I'm bout to post is for my first love, the one who will always have a piece of my heart no matter what!Clarence Eugene Davis Jr.

Love Always-N-Day

Wendy Leigh

Hamilton Park - Thing Called Us [Music Video]

Update of The CRAZINESS

So My last post I expressed the ups and downs of my crazy feelings and everything that was currently going on and I just want to start by updating that. I was able to make it to Dante's funeral but I couldn't go up to the casket. I sat in the 3rd row facing him so I stared at him the whole time just saying how unreal it was and he looked weird not like Dante but it was. I still don't feel like it's real! I just wish he could of got to come to Miami one time! When I told him happy bday last year he said he wanted to come down and party with us. its still heart breaking and it really is something that is going to take time to register and really try to get over. I hope Joey is caught though and soon before his life is taken as well. You can't solve violence with violence. To get out all the bad, Jaquetta *aka* Jae is in a rough place right now. I tweeted that"It's hard to see someone you was once so close with hit rock bottom, when you didn't even know they was going through it." She has a warrant for prostitution, theft and I think drugs. Which is definitely not what I would have ever seen her doing with her life. All I been thinking about lately is writing a song with her and having her sing. I hope I get a hold of her soon. or at least her dad! I don't know if he know's whats going on with her. If he don't respond soon I'm going to have to contact her brothers frank or Chaz. I don't even know. I just am lost with it right now. I'll be praying for her. On a brighter note, Cadence is getting sooooo big and even more beautiful. Ima post a pic of her on here. So all my babies will be on here. This weekend also I went to North Carolina to see my brother with my other brother. It was cool! It's crazy how all that driving can bring two people closer! I love my brothers. Hopefully soon my mom can understand that and just accept that they are a part of me and I love them they same as my sisters and her. They had nothing to do with the situation between her and Alan. They were brought into it innocently. & they are more than welcomed to be in my life and they will be! But north Carolina is Nice. I don't know about moving there. it's far as hell! But I could definitely see myself moving to a bigger city close to Zanesville. Or even in a neighboring state of Ohio. I'm taking my Lyrie boo and Tee Bee with me tho! I'm about to start working too cause this no income thing is not working for me. I need cash. & I'm staying in Oxford this weekend so it'll be weekend 2 that im not going home. Trying to stay here til the 14th which is fall break. I'm still sick which sucks!!! Hopefully it will be over soon! Like real soon! Anyway I'm going to end on that note! Just Praying....

Love Always -N- Forever

Wendy Leigh

Monica - Until It's Gone [NEW SONG 2011]

You Gon' Miss Me When I Go....

A lifetime of Mourning =(

As of Friday September 9th 2011 my best friend became a mommy to a beautiful baby girl named Cadence MyLynn who I just love unconditionally. And as of Saturday September 10th 2011 I lost someone so dear. Dante Alan Wolford took flight to heaven around 8pm. I am truely heartbroken and baffled in trying to understand WHY?? It just doesn't seem right. It's not fair. Its hard to deal with it. Never had someone so close die so young. And the funeral aint til the end of the week and i know its really gona be real then. Something so crazy. My last time being able to see Tay. All I can do is be sad and cry. It makes me realize life is so short. Makes me want more and want to work harder to get what I want. I pray to God that Dante made it safely to Heaven and hopefully he doesn't feel regrets and it isnt anything like I imagine. because I have this vision that you can see everyone you love feeling so much pain and you cant do anything about it but I hope and pray that he doesnt feel that way cause I know everyone loves him and eventually they will get through this together but its going to take a while. I hope Joey gets caught. I would never wish death apon anyone but God knows that that man does not deserve to walk this green earth after he took Dante from it. So senseless and ridiculous. I wrote Tay a letter too so if I don't make it to the funeral at least he knows I was paying my respects. Dear God if you are listening let him know I love him and I'll see him again one day and I want the biggest hug ever!!!!!! But untill then Goodbye Baby boy!! Rest in Heavenly Peace!

Love Always -N- Eternity

Wendy Leigh

End of Summer 2011

Well the summers pretty much over!! At the end of this week and I'll be back at Miami University! Yayyyy SIKE! I have enjoyed my summer soooo much though! Once I decided I was going to make sure it was good! I can't even explain the things that happened this summer. I know I made memories thats all that matters! I realized some of the things I wanted were just thoughts! I realized I was just day dreaming. I also realized that I never again want a weekend boyfriend. I realized having fun and putting a friendship and someone elses relationship at jeopardy isn't cool at all. I learned I love my God Daughter and My niece more than anything in the world and I'm so glad I got the whole summer with them. I met sooo many new people working at Walmart and I'm still trying to get back on at the other one down in Oxford. I really hope in a month everything goes good and they are hiring! even for weekends only. I'll be heading to North Carolina in a week and a half! Yesss! just aint tryna go broke doing it but hey i needa do some wild things. I still gotta get a few things for my apartment Thursday. Just got my car fixed. Trying to get this Charger. Im going to call or email them as soon as possible! Dad said try and trade even up and fix the shit on it. its only body work soooo. but I need a Job to do that lol. One more year! I can't wait for 2012 to be over that way I know I got that paper in a frame! and a shirt that says Miami University ALUMNI! I am more determined than ever to make that happen!! One more semester and I'll be off probation! Thank God! Im gona be grinding hard this semester and Ima try and find a internship. Which reminds me I need to get my stuff together to go in here and talk to Michelle about graduation and getting there. Gotta make myself get real about walking across that stage!! My appearance is a must! I'm not bout to be Fat Wendy im about to be comfortable in my skin! Gotta get right!! Anyhow Im bout to finish a few things and then head to bed! SOOOO Update later.... whenever Later is =)


Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Tynisha Keli - Flip The Script (2011)

I don't get mad I get even!!

IT'S JUST NOT YOU....

The doubts in my head are ringing like a telephone.... time to pick it up and get the answers that are set in stone. Yeah I was right you are nothing like the others but your still not what I need I still have him to discover. I keep praying that you don't get mad at me then I get mad automatically cause how could you be mad when in reality Im number two and you got a girl thats at home waiting...exactly. I know you love me and I love you too... just not "IN LOVE" Im not gon' lie I dont have that to do. Were really good friends and Im here for you. But I been in relationships that are all lies and I dont want that no more I need a proud guy. You say your leaving her, that the time is coming. well i aint got that either so like you do from the truth Ima keep on running. Cause I deserve way more. and not next week or month. right now today and you aint keeping up. Thats the harsh truth. now its your time to face it! Im too extraordinary to deal with basic!

To "Kevin"

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Up Lyrics - Justin Bieber feat. Chris Brown

""we can make the sunshine in the moonlight, we can turn the grey clouds into blue skies""

JUNE : INTERESTING MONTH

Well... to say the least. this summer has went as nothing I planned nor expected. I honestly don't even know what the deal is for real. Kevin =) thats all I can say. He's my best friend. or so thats what we call ourselves. I dont want nothing more from him either because he has a girlfriend and I am not trying to be the homewrecker or the one who helped break her heart. I know the feeling ohhh to well. I love him but Im not in love with him, and with the circumstances I know I never will love him completely because I wont allow myself. I feel like I am leading him on more than I want to. I know our paths just will never align and I don't want to put him through that. I know how much he cares about me and its just not fair. Brentnei's bday is coming up in a couple days. Smh I dont know what she is going to want to do for that. I know I aint going anywhere with Lakeshia so thats a done deal already. Chels wants us to come down there but I don't know bout all that cuz I dont have the money or the time off work for all that. Plus I am going to be going down to NC to see my brother soon! Before summer ends for sure! I am sooo tired but just a little more i guess. Alyria and Bray's parties are coming up too. I need to get there power bikes and shoes and be done. Tia needs to get her check so we can buy some stuff and be done with it. I need some me money. Me time. me decisions. I need to plan some stuff and get it together. School and everything. It has gotta end like asap. The real world is hard but Im tryna live it because this transitional period just aint koolin it for me. anyhow, Ima leave off! I need sleep!

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had (Audio)

CJ, I wanted You bad... but Im so through with that cause you turned out to be the best thing I never had and Im the best thing you'll never have...

Interesting Good =)

So it's definitely been a while since I have posted. So i am going to get a lot out!!! Well I am working at Walmart now and I love it! I have made a lot of new friends! Makes me love being home and not want to go back to school but I guess. Ima see if they can just work every other weekend so I can still work there. I am supposed to be working white castle too but they have been b.s ing me around. Ima just give my notice. Plus the driving is ridiculous for real. I haven't talked to Clarence in so long. I haven't talked to Mike in so long. it feels weird not talking to ppl that I usually conversated with everyday. But I guess if people were meant to be in your life they would be huh.Its weird to now that I am at walmart Kevin and me have become really good friends. I never really talked to him just his brothers. But I like it. Were cool. he has a girlfriend so its not like that but I can tell it is. lol When were at work it's funny. he sits with me in the break room, he comes up front just to talk to me. he stalls when I'm around but him and his girl have been together for a while so i aint into no home wrecking! But friends/flirts it is! =) I also had a crush on someone that one of my new b.f.f's is talking to but I would never do that to a fried old or new. Oh yeah which brings me to Tia. she and jasmine finally broke up for good and she was talking to Kayla but that just aint happening. Me an Kayla took a road trip to columbus. OH EM GEE... smh that was the funnest time ever! We werent even anywhere close to where we was supposed to be! it was fun! I like her! Were cool. My brother Aj Moved to North Carolina too. smh sad! Went and seen him for 2 days b4 he left and seen Kyle! I don't knwo what I would do with out them guys! I love them! Ima save up and drive up there b4 the summer is over! My aunt Carole writes me on fb wanting to get to know me. Ima make plans to go see her soon. Hopefully Kyle is home when ever it is. I don't want to feel awkward. I have ahuge todo list to do for tomorrow. I needa clean my room and my car inside and out! smh its dirty!!! I got another tattoo! Its kinda big but everyone likes it so i anint gona complain. I hope my housing on campus turns out! if not I'm jus stuck. Idk it's whatever. I would rather go back to the suites anyway. Brayleigh and Alyria are getting ready to start walking!! those girls are off the hook!! geetting grown on me! I already started planning Alyrias bday party! its crazy but I love it! Anyway I need to go do something productive off of my todo list! Just wanted to update. I have been happy lately!

=)

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Ryan Leslie - "Glory" (Official Music Video)

The Glory <---

No Prize....

So I officially started at Wal-mart today. All * hr shifts, Guess I can't complain considering I have a cell bill and credit card bill to finish paying off. Plus still working one day at White Castle a week. which means getting paid every Thursday. I kinda hinted to Tia today about a couple things, who knows maybe she got it. I aint gona just say it though. I did her hair today. I hooked her up a little but you know what, I am realizing that I am not winning a prize or a contest by pleasing everyone but yourself. I need to learn how to make myself happy. It sucks that I can do that for others but not myself. I can make them happy and appreciative but I can't for myself. =(. Guess I can add that to my life todo list that never gets touched because I am sulking in pitty. I definitely need to take glory. But How do I do this? It has to be my time right? When?? Like in that Fabolous song My time. Guess I needa get a motivator. I needa find my iPod too. This shit is BS! Tomorrow after work. 10:30-5:30. May 26th I should get some good money. Hopefully taxes doesn't completely wipe me. I had em take an extra $5 out every check for tax reasons anyway. i am claiming Alyria next tax season though I do know that much!! Hopefully Tia don't blow this school loan money on useless shit. Smh Hopefully Kayla straightens her out a little! Help her get on a good path for her and Lyrie! Well I needa go to bed. 8 and 9 hour days for the rest of the week. Toodles

Love Always-n-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Frankie J - Tears of A Clown(Official New Single + Lyrics/Download)

I just want to be different... =?

New Start

So today was my sisters bday. I kind of feel bad cause she felt like it wasn't. I know the feeling but I mean what can you do? I don't even have money to get her anything so I definitely owe her next week. smh at myself. I went to the dentist today too. got 3 feelings. Another appointment June 9th I think. Kinda feels good knowing they wont hurt like they did!! I'll be glad when they all are done and I just keep on making sure they stay that way. Clarence is here texting me saying "kum see me"... bet not! Always tryna see me when it's late and or when he needs or wants something. I am not about to get used. Forget all that mess. He a fool!! I gotta be a Walmart for this 3rd interview and stuff and getting drug tested and stuff. I'm ready to start so I can make some money!!! I hope hours be right too. I just don't know what to do about white castle. Guess we'll see huh! Jazz is on her way now to get this Harry Potter movie. I just got back from Tia's though. Like every night has been. I don;t think I am going tomorrow. I'm good on it. To be honest I am jealous of Tia. But I'll keep that to myself because I am also happy for her at the same time! She deserves happiness. I love her to death!! She can't help it shes beautiful. Anyway that Harry Potter movie was intense. I liked it a lot. I have so much on my mind and for some reason I just can't get it out!! This sucks for real cause that's why i have this blog. It's like my own personal diary and I feel broken. =( I feel like I need to Get it together. I know I gotta an A in Sex class, a C in Philosophy, a D in Soc and now Im just waiting on parenting. Hopefully it's an A too then my gpa should be about the same as it was last semester!!! Fall semester Ima have to bust balls to finish!! I don't want to be there a full extra year!! I know a semester for sure because of taking a semester off but Jeeszh. I also did Lisa's hair. Kinda rushed through it but it still looked it alright. I think she liked it. I wish I could get away for like 2 months and come back wayyyyyyy different. Guess that's not gona happen so I needa get it together. Welp I'ma call it a night!! Toodles!!

Love Always-N-Forever
Wendy Leigh

Frankie J - The Ones I Wanna Love (NEW 2011)

=)

Realization

Okay it's been a while. But I'm officially out of classes for the semester finally. I had my interviews at wal-mart. Hopefully I hear something back like asap this week. Gotta dentist appointment tomorrow at 10am. Yuck! and gotta work this weekend. Hopefully money just comes in cause this is stressful. I have been thinking a lot lately too. About who I am and who I come off to be. I don't want to deceive myself right now and i think I am. I also don't want people thinking I am conforming to anyone. I have realized it don't matter the sex of the person I like. I'm attracted to people not what they are. This is kind of hard for me to say but I know I have to face it. i don't want to hide who I am. I'm attracted to attractive people. I have known this for a while but as I get older I realize I just want to be happy and doing this makes me feel 100 percent better about trying to accept it. Even though no one reads this blog. It's my personal diary. But I am bout to chill wit bray for a second so I will write more later tonight! Mothers day was amazing by the way!!


Love Always-N-Forever
Wendy Leigh

What I want....

Hmmm So Brentnei Moved out this weekend... Osama Bin Laden was killed, I am currently watching Obama speak and tell the story about his killing. this gives him so much more votes!! want to bet? We'll see. I just wish that gas would go down and all this bickering of the deficit would stop cutting into the college budget so I have some money to finish school with. I actually cooked a meal. Prolly wont do it again considering my limited options of what to cook and what to cook with! man I am nervous about these Exams... especially this SOC 151.. fml about it. Im going to go out to Zane State asap so I can take this STATS class and transfer the credit.. This sucks cause I can already tell Im not gona get a C in this stupid Soc class which means ima have to take it over again to even apply to this Social Work Major. I'm kind of tired of dealing with all the trouble it is taking to reach these goals. Everything is starting to take all my energy and patience which wasn't much to begin with. I'm physically, emotionally, and and everything else broken down. I am in panic mode. I hate not knowing whats next and what do I do? I am scared of the unknown. I should just focus on right now though... I need to STUDY and just know what I need to know as much as possible so that I can do good on these exams. I think I have an A in fsw 365 and If i can do good on this exam for 381 i can get an A- in here and maybe that can out weigh the Soc grade which is likely to be a D... =( I keep thinking about babies too. I have wanted to become a mom for so long but my insecurities have made me stop all that. This summer I have high hopes for myself though. Hopefully a lot of realizing! I need it I know that much! Ughghhhh I just want to scream right now... Bout to crawl in my bed and stay there! I can only handle so much... Guess what I want is irrelevant

Mariah Carey - I Still Believe

I will always love you C.J Davis

It's Me.. ALL ways Me!

So NO MORE classes for the spring of 2011!! =) Yeaaaaaah!! Anyway I got 2 exams that I gotta go hard on! Extra Hard! Especially my Sociology class. A requirement for my major is to pass that class with a C or better and nothing less than an A is gona fly for this one!! SO I gotta go hard! and I still have my Parenting exam! I wish I could get an A in there so I could have two A's and it would pull my Gpa up. Gotta send my app in tomorrow for this scholarship first thing in the AM. I'm to go crazy cleaning!! I need to so i can organize my stuff for when mom comes down and we pack everything up!! SO sad that I'll be back home for the summer at my parents. I put in two job apps today. WIsh I could get one asap lol so I didn't have to worry abt traveling!! I pray God works in my favor!! Well Lauren and Haley are still in the running for American Idol!! That's my concern! I want one of them to take it all the way! Good Luck and Prayers to them!! I gotta call about getting a gym pass for the summer! I need to be working out everyday! I gotta change! I have no choice. I don't want to be like my real dad. I need to get myself healthy!! It's too crazy!! Plus I want to look and feel good about my body!! and myself! Well I can't think of what I am going to say next so I'm goign to sign out!

Love Always-N-Forever

Wendy Leigh <3

Sammie - Just Be Friends (NoShout) [NEW] [2011]

.... Hate these 4 words "Let's Just Be Friends"....

Anger is motivation

The anger inside of me sooo strong, I'm afraid that it's going to over come me soon and that's just not how I want to be seen or seem. But I guess I have to do what I have to do to express myself.. I am stalling on my own behalf of insecurities. Why me? Trying to figure out what to do for real because I need to grip on things like asap. My day dreaming is taken control of my mind. I need to suppress the dreaming for like a week to see my productivity. I need to do something fast. To-do list is definitely going to include some in depth processes to start some progression. Maybe I should treat it as a disorder that I need to be treated for. Admitting I have a problem is the first step to recovery right? I know I need to stop trying to impress everyone around me and just worry about how I'm going to impress myself. I can't remember feeling good about something I was proud of that I did. Which sucks. Church on Sunday set off a thought process that stemmed to crazy things. All I can say is I pray God some how see's me struggling and asking for help and pulls through for me. I really need it right now because I don't know how much longer I can hold it all in. The verge of breaking down....

Love Always-n-Forever
Wendy Leigh




say whats on your heart if your real, cause the scars you cant see be the hardest to heal- Fabolous,(thats not love)

Dreams or Nightmares

I have let my time be consumed with use less things. I have one more week of class left and I haven't even packed yet. My room is actually still a huge mess and I need to get to it! I also have to do 2 study guides for Soc and Fsw. I need to utilize my time a little more. Im so freaking tired right now and im in philosophy class that I hate!! I can wait for it to be over! Im going home tho! and its Easter weekend. I hope that I didnt wait too long to get gas at $3.53. Brent said it was $3.89 in the ville!! ughhh too expensive! I need to get another job asap! Thats what this weekend is all about! Im getting my scholarship papers filled out and turned in and apps turned in!! My stomach feels so flip floppy! Ughhh I think its the hawaiian punch im drinking. Should throw it away and drink this water. No pop though!! Im done with it! my summer plan is set now!! I have no room to play!!I need to go get this gym pass! My eyes are burning im so tired right now. I keep gettin on and off facebook so people will stop writing me. I need to move to england or canada and get their health insurance. I know Im going to start my period this weekend too! I'm getting a headache from her.. bout to sleep till this class is over!! 30 minutes sound s sweet! lol

TTYL
Love Always-n-Forever
Wendy Leigh

Chris Brown - She Can Get It (FULL VERSION) [NEW SONG 2011]

Mmmm Chris B.

.....Trust Issues.....

Okay so it's Monday Night, # more FSW 365 Classes, 2 more SOC 151 classes, 3 more PHL Classes and # FSW 381 classes! REALLY excited but kind of nervous.. I need a job in Zanesville ASAP. I wish I could get a job at the mall but not dealing with food. Smh Just my luck tho right? I need to get this car sold and get my impala... I just am at a stand still almost or at least thats What i feel like. Chelsea moved out and didnt even tell us and took stuff that didnt belong to her. I'm watching Ghost Whisperer, So I am going in and out of writing. I really have a lot to say I just don't know what right now. I have been day dreaming a lot so my thoughts aren't relevant to write about. Ohh Easter is this weekend. I need to wash Bray's Dress Cause were going to church which also means I need to find Something to wear. I was thinking about not going home but We'll see cause i think Im just gona stay til Monday. I guess my mom is gona get me a new bed that way I aint on the floor. I need to go to the Financial aid office tomorrow and see if I can get my budget higher so I can take one class during the summer online. I need to get an A+ and 4.0 so I can get my gpa high to Pledge a sorority. I think I'm gona take down all mirrors around me. I'm tired of always degrading myself on my looks. I need to just change it. Thunder storm just scared the crap out of me. Anyway Ima brush my teeth and lay down. Good Night

Love Always N Forever

Wendy Leigh

K. Michelle - Its All About Me (New 2011)

... It's all about me now!!

TIME...OUT

So last night I should have updated but I didn't. So I came home for the weekend. Bray is sick again!! Everytime I get around her I get sick again!! SMH Anyway. I realized when I wake up earlier the day goes slower! I need to get up early tomorrow and go to the bank, hopefully it's open because I have to get those scholarship applications. Went to the movies today with Kamaria, Kamden, Corey Shay, Lindsie C., And Cheryl. We seen RIO. It's a cute little movie! Thing is I didnt want to be in the mall but I was with chub and I seen Jordan, Antman, Steven, and Josh and wow did I look hit. This is where my insecurities come in cause I did not want to see them! I am so big now =(. 3 more weeks and it's shed the pounds time. I need to diagram and set rules og how I am going to do this so I succeed. I need to find a job too so I can get a new car! I cleaned mine out and now need to vacuum it out and take pics and put them on craigslist see if I can't get someone to bite! BIG paper due Monday and a Quiz for SOC. Got Kamaria with me now, she K.O. on me. Then went to Shelley's for a little bit.. Forgot BOB again!! Want to bet that Chelsea nor Todd Did the dishes or took the trash out? Or got trash bags for that matter? Trifflin as ever! I am soooo tired! I need to just lay down! start fresh in the morning. Bout to change sooooo I'm bout to find a song and post it!!
~GOD BLESS~

G'Nite Love Always-n-Forever

Wendy Leigh

Trey Songz - Daddy Can I Get It (Unseen)

TIRED!!

Okay so it's finally Thursday ( only because its after midnight) Oh well I'll take it! I know when I wake up in the morning I'll end up going back to sleep ina different city! a City known as Home!!! Yesss! Anyway I finished my philosophy paper.. Maybe she wont know I just rewrite the words of some sight?? Idk but at this point I just want some credit. I got a BIG paper due this Monday coming. My final for FSW 365, *aka* Sex class. I don't even know what I am writing about and I have my last quiz for Sociology. I am determined to get a 55! hell a 50. I need this next quiz and last exam Ins SOC to make it outta that class alive!! I have decided I want to Pledge Delta. Either Fall '11 or Spring '12. Better late than never right?? I figure I will be here another semester at the least cause you know I am slow!! Hopefully get my Major all sorted out. I have to go to Financial aid office first thing Monday morning! I need to take at least one online class this summer so I can get a 4.0 and upgrade my GPA to even pledge delta and change my major. I have big plans!! I just hope God stays by my side and guides me through his steps of life he is letting me decide!! BIG sigh!! I need to shower and stuff. I am debating if I am gona do these dishes cuz I know I am just going to get stuck doing them over and over again. I can't believe after tomorrow I will only have 2 more weeks of this semester! and 3 weeks in this apartment really! Crazy Crazy!! Anyway I wanted to update so ima go!! Remember PUT GOD FIRST!!

Love Always-n-Forever
Wendy Leigh =)

*****G'Nite****