The anger inside of me sooo strong, I'm afraid that it's going to over come me soon and that's just not how I want to be seen or seem. But I guess I have to do what I have to do to express myself.. I am stalling on my own behalf of insecurities. Why me? Trying to figure out what to do for real because I need to grip on things like asap. My day dreaming is taken control of my mind. I need to suppress the dreaming for like a week to see my productivity. I need to do something fast. To-do list is definitely going to include some in depth processes to start some progression. Maybe I should treat it as a disorder that I need to be treated for. Admitting I have a problem is the first step to recovery right? I know I need to stop trying to impress everyone around me and just worry about how I'm going to impress myself. I can't remember feeling good about something I was proud of that I did. Which sucks. Church on Sunday set off a thought process that stemmed to crazy things. All I can say is I pray God some how see's me struggling and asking for help and pulls through for me. I really need it right now because I don't know how much longer I can hold it all in. The verge of breaking down....
Love Always-n-Forever
Wendy Leigh
say whats on your heart if your real, cause the scars you cant see be the hardest to heal- Fabolous,(thats not love)
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