Exertion

I am physically, mentally,and emotionally tired from everything right now. I have completed my medicine and I still feel like crap. Still can't breath. Now back to feeling congested and lightheaded. I'm tired of using this nasal spray. It says its dangerous to use more than 3 days but I have been using it for over a week and a half now. It's the only thing that helps me from having a nervous break down and anxiety attach because I just want to cry and scream and hit something when I feel like this. I just don't handle it well. I make people think I can though by not showing it in front of them because i don't want people thinking i'm crazy =/. The house is a mess. I haven't cleaned because well.... I am the only one who does clean it!! and I'm sick of cleaning it!! But I know I will clean probably. Or leave it the way it is an just leave for the weekend and see of ol' lazy ass Chelsea will clean. I won't hold my breath on that one though!! I think Im going to have to start wearing my glasses though cause I can't even see the tv letters on the guide any more from where the couch is and I squint in lass to see the notes on over head projectors. Something that is pissing me off is this Philosophy class. I hate philosophy and I hate Sociology! I can;t wait till I am no longer in neither class. I need to meet with Michelle soon. I also need to call that dude Doug wanted me to tomorrow! only 3 more weeks of this school year then home for the summer! Hopefully a hard working summer because I want a new car! I never expected instant gratification for anything but if I could get it right about now it would be a blessing that I couldn't stop appreciating! Everything is just so hard! I need a break from my life. School, work, bills, money, friend, family,... it's all building up and I feel like I am going to lash out at the wrong person for something stupid. But!! Tamara on the other hand, see look when she pays that 400 at the end of this month I'll stop making nice cause this is starting to annoy me! I do a lot for others including her and I just get taken advantage of! I'm sick of it. I was going to cut all ties a long time ago but my horoscope said don't burn your bridges so I didn't but I am not going to tolerate this anymore! It's me time and if others can't accept that then all I have to say is Bye! I just heard a train! I'm tired and got a lot to do tomorrow and I need to go to sleep so on that note Im going to add a song to my page and go to bed!!

God Bless,
Wendy Leigh